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Dear Diary: I’d like a new family, please. September 23, 2008

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Dear Diary,

What does a person do when they don’t get along with members of their own family?

I have two family members with whom I’d rather hide from, than spend time with. My mother and a brother. Is that sad? Is that normal? I haven’t spoken to my mother in a couple of months. I haven’t seen my brother all summer, though I’ve spoken to him a few times – reluctantly. Today, he is returning home from his summer-long job. I am not pleased that he is returning, nor am I pleased with myself for feeling this way.

Now that my brother will be home, and living only a few houses away from me (with my mother), he will start pressuring me (again) to speak to/visit my mother. It’s hard enough for me to even allow my brother into my home, let alone listen to his lectures.

I feel that I’m a very good, fair, caring, loving person. BUT. Where, and when, does a person draw the line? And because it’s family, is it bad when there’s a line drawn? I am not good around people with negative energy, or negative attitudes, and this is just one of the reasons I prefer to run and hide from my mother and brother. They are extremely draining, which I don’t like.

What does one do in this situation? I have, indeed, spoken with both of them and they do know how I feel. Both are oblivious to my discomfort, not to mention my feelings. Yet they still keep trying to talk with me. I don’t get it. How many times do I need to say “leave me alone,” for them to actually leave me alone?

I’ve tried and tried to see the lesson here, to see what it is I’m to learn, but I just don’t see it. Turning the other cheek is not it, believe me. Ah well, maybe time will tell and it’ll all come to me in some wonderous, light-filled moment of awareness. At least, that’s what I pray for.

For now, my brother will be showing up here at my house soon (I feel it). So, I am off to find some Sage. he he he Thanks for hearing me out and listening to my rant! ;)

A day for my daughter. September 19, 2008

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Yesterday was a day that will remain in my heart forever.

My daughter has been using my car for the past several weeks, because hers had broken down. Her boss, being the big-hearted person she is, offered to help my daughter buy another car. Her boss picked the car out, and all my daughter had to do was go pick it up. (That’s a one in a million boss!)

The drive was 45 minutes away, so I volunteered to take my daughter and grandson. On the way, we had a really nice heart-to-heart talk, which we haven’t had a chance to do in a long time. When we arrived at the car lot, a guy came out to meet my daughter. After telling him who she was, he looked at me, then at her, then at me, then at her. What the? I had no clue what was wrong, and the guy just smiled and shook his head. Well, after they talked a bit, the guy backed my daughter’s new car out of the building. And then I saw why he’d reacted the way he did. Apparently (I was told this later), my daughter had been manifesting a car… just like mine. At some point, she had also mentioned this to her boss. And that’s exactly what she got… a car exactly like mine! Different year, but same make and model, and same color. Oh, was it funny! My daughter was beaming, I was laughing, and the poor sales guy was just confused. ha ha

As my daughter was putting her things into her new car, something else hit me. She was wearing white pants and a pink shirt. The exact same clothes I was wearing this morning, before I’d decided to change. Now, wouldn’t that have been something?! We already look a lot alike. But to have twin cars, and have dressed like twins? Oh, that would’ve been hilarious!

Before heading home, we stopped by my bf’s new job and his boss ran a free scan on the new car, deeming it in perfect running condition. When we got home, friends of my daughter’s also checked all the fluids for her, for free.

My daughter knows all about manifesting. Not too long ago, she was struggling. Her work hours had been cut drastically. She was staying with another relative, because she didn’t have a place of her own. Her car had broken down, and her money was running out. She had no daycare provider, so she could look for another job. So, she began to manifest, and to realign herself with her desires. I mentioned this to her yesterday. She hadn’t even fully realized that all of her manifestations had become reality: Her boss had moved her to full-time. She got an apartment, and her apt number was 22 (an Angel number!). She found a daycare with an opening, and even has help in paying for it. She got her new car. After listing all of this, my daughter was beaming. So was I! The really amazing thing, though? It all happened within a weeks’ time!

Yes, it was my daughter’s day yesterday. And I am blessed to have shared it with her. :) We ended our day by laughing at how all of my neighbors will react when they see two of my car sitting out in front of my house. Small town gossip… it’s never-ending and always entertaining.

Dear Diary: Help! We’ve become game addicts! September 9, 2008

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Dear Diary,

I’m not quite sure how it started, but I know the day was Sunday. Having nothing to do, I logged into my MySpace, to see if I had any messages. And there it was. A big, black, strobe-like flashing ad: Mafia Wars! JOIN NOW! I looked away, hating those damn flashing ads. But then I looked back. And worse, I clicked on it. I am not a gamer. Why in the world I “clicked,” I’ll never know. But it’s too late to turn back now.

I signed up to play Mafia Wars. I’d barely begun to get into it, when my bf came over and asked, “Wha’cha doing?” After explaining the game to him, and complaining, “I need more family!!” I got up from my chair to get a drink. When I returned, my bf was in my chair, playing my game. My bf hates MySpace. “I just wanna check it out,” he said. It had taken me about 10 minutes to get hooked on Mafia Wars. My bf? All it took for him was the mention of the word “Mafia.” He wouldn’t budge from my chair.

Resigned, I went to sit in the livingroom. Then I remembered that there are other games I saw advertised, and I can log into my MySpace account at the same time! (yes, you can do that) I grabbed my laptop and got comfortable. Immediately, I saw a game that called to me: Vampire. And Dragon Wars. And Mobsters. And Rockstar.

One of the things you need in order to play these games well, is “friends.” Friends from your MySpace Friends List. I began sending out requests to all my friends. Requests for every game I signed up for. A little voice in my head told me not to do it, but I ignored it. I’d remembered getting those same requests and instantly deleting them. Ooops. I didn’t know! I’m so sorry, friends! Most of my friends did accept, but I’m still impatiently waiting for the rest to get with it! he he he

Well, Sunday morning turned into Sunday evening. And we were both STILL playing. Reluctantly, and after my son lecturing us about the endless hours on the computers, we went to bed. But wait. It isn’t over yet. Monday morning, I secretly logged in to check out my “stats.” Secretly, yes. Because I didn’t want my bf taking over! I logged out when he got up, and went about my business. Then when I figured it was ‘late enough’ in the morning to log on, I did. And I heard my bf say from the other room, “I already checked.” What?! When did he do that? ha ha ha

Monday flew by. I barely recollect my children telling us we needed help. Lecturing, again, on our usage of the computers. At one point during the evening, after taking a break from our games, my bf’s daughter called. Instantly, he asked her, “Do you have MySpace? I need more friends!” My son and I just stared at him before busting up laughing.

We finally stopped playing around 10pm, Monday night. And here it is now, Tuesday morning. I haven’t logged in to check my “stats.” YET. I’m going to. After I take my son to school. Because I don’t want to hear yet another lecture. But I have to hurry… before my bf wakes up. So I’m outta here!

P.s. In the best interest of my readers, I have not included any links to myspace, or the games they offer. If you want to join in my new addiction, you’ll have to search for them yourself. I can’t be held responsible! (ha ha ha)

Appreciating the little things September 6, 2008

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So many little “things” get ignored, thrown to the side, never to be seen. The little things that can mean so much. The little things need to be appreciated just as much as the big things, don’t you think? Without the little things, how can big things even exist?

Here are some little things that have happened lately, which I appreciate and want to acknowledge:

* Instead of going out, getting drunk, waking up with a miserable hangover last night, my boyfriend and I sat in the dark and listened to music together. Eighties music. Loud, vibrating, feel it in your bones music. I mean, so loud that the ornaments on top of our tower speakers actually fell off… numerous times. (he he he)

* Seeing my son walk in the door and instantly start dancing to the loud music. Oh, that was so awesome and hilarious to see!

* My grandson flying through our front door, excitedly yelling “hi!” and grabbing hold of my legs tightly to give me a bear hug. “Hi!” he kept yelling… over and over, as if he hadn’t seen me in ages.

* My grandson, for the first time, saying, “Grandma.” (insert proud, cheesy grin here)

* My boyfriend telling me “Damn, you look so hot” while grabbing my butt. (giggle)

* Smelling the fresh, clean air after an early evening rain.

* Running into old friends at the store.

* Riding a bicycle and feeling the wind on my face.

* Hearing my daughter’s laughter.

* Watching my grandson literally run and jump into the arms of my boyfriend.

There are so many “little” things that I appreciate. They happen every day. Most of the time, they don’t escape my attention. Sometimes, they do, but not usually. Do you see, and appreciate, the little things in your life? :)

Oh, the OCD is kicking in… September 4, 2008

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I only have a touch of OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder) these days. I’m much better than I used to be, believe me. Some days, though, it rears its little head more than others. Like, for the past eleven days.

I don’t know why I’m so hell-bent on mopping our wood floors right now. Maybe because they’re dirty? Or because there are water/juice/milk/soda spots on the floor? Or maybe it’s the little tiny pebbles I keep stepping on? Did I mention that I like walking around barefoot? I’m running out of socks…

Ever since we returned from our Cali trip, I’ve been wanting to mop the floors. Every single day, I’ve made it my goal. But, like many other plans I make, something else prevents me from getting them done. We had friends over, family over, it rained, I had to do other things… arrrggghhhh.

I heard a saying once: “Cleaning the house while you have children is like shoveling snow while it’s still snowing.” How very true that is!

Why is this bothering me so much? I don’t know. It’s the OCD thing, I’m sure. Meanwhile, the rest of the house is getting clean. Very clean. The blades on our ceiling fan are shining. Sigh. I won’t be able to do the floors today, either. My daughter and grandson will be over. My bf will be home. I think it’s going to rain again. Maybe I should just let it go for now. As a friend of mine recently told me, it’s just going to get dirty again anyway. :)

OCD. If I could just control this damn thing… he he he.