I am feeling drawn to add a little more to my blog today. To share more about my Self. My True Self. Though I still plan on writing about life experiences, my grandson, things to laugh about, etc., I have a feeling I will also be writing in more detail about my Spiritual Path. Therefore, I’d like to share a little background with you. :)

All of my life, I’ve had certain “abilities.” I don’t like to call myself “psychic,” because well, it just doesn’t feel right. I have called myself a Medium, because that one feels okay, but that label doesn’t really cover all that I have experienced. So, what am I, then? I’ve come across so many people that have a need to label this, and when I refuse, they get frustrated. I think if I had to absolutely label myself, I would use the term “Intuitive.” Yes, that feels right.

My beliefs are that we are all intuitive. We call it intuition, gut-feeling, inner knowing, sixth sense. How many times have you said, “I don’t know… I just knew.” :) I don’t think my level of intuitiveness is anything special, but I do believe that the help I can give others utilizing it, is. Therefore, I consider it a gift. A gift I was given, so that I can give gifts in return. :)

I never really paid attention to my abilities as I was growing up. By that, I mean that I didn’t feel that I was different from anyone else. That’s just how I was. I grew up in a family that was very open about their intuitiveness, so it was pretty much normal for me. As I grew older, got married, had children and experienced more in my life, my desire to learn more about myself and these abilities, grew. But it wasn’t until my son’s father died in an accident that I truly began my spiritual path. As happens often when someone experiences a deep loss, I began to question LIFE… why? why did this happen? why him? why me? what now? what happens after we die? The questions were endless.

As I began to question, to learn and to grow, my “abilities” became more developed. My turning point was while I was talking to a friend on instant messenger. Just a casual conversation about his grandmother changed my life. As he was telling me that she’d died, I instantly had a very clear picture of an elderly woman in my head. She was telling me (in my head) that her feet hurt. Never having experienced this before, I told my friend about it. I think he was more shocked than I was, especially after I described the woman to him. He said that was HIS grandmother and that yes, she had had problems with her feet. He gave me a few questions to ask her (in my head), and I repeated her answers to him. My first ever introduction to mediumship. I will never forget my friend’s grandmother. After doing that “reading,” many, many more came about. I would go into “psychic” chatrooms with friends and I would hear people talking to me, people who have passed, that is. Or I would see pictures in my head. Or feel emotions from those people who couldn’t talk. It was overwhelming at first, until I began to learn how to sort through everything.

I’ve done other kinds of readings, also. Hundreds. By using photos, cards, intuition, etc. But mediumship has become my strongest ability. Ironically, when my son’s father passed away, my biggest question was, “Will I ever talk to him again?” And I have, through other mediums. Though he also visits me from time to time through dreams, or just by letting me feel his energy around me. With the help of my son’s father, and numerous other souls who have passed, I’ve learned that when we leave this world, it is only in a physical aspect. We are all still together, just not physically. That is very comforting to know. :)

Someone asked me once why I do mediumship. The answer? To help others not only heal, but to understand that no matter what happens, we are always connected… we are always together. Dealing with the physical loss of a loved one is very hard, but there IS comfort in knowing that the separation is purely physical. The connection is still there, the love is still there, the memories are still there. If you’ve lost a loved one, know that they still see you, still hear you, still feel your love. And they want you to feel theirs in return.

If there is one thing that I have learned on my spiritual path doing mediumship, it is LOVE. To physically feel the love that exists “out there,” is indescribable. It has embraced me, while being expressed by a non-physical soul, and it has made me cry because it was so beautiful. When a passed soul wants to tell their loved one who is still alive that they love them, they show me with emotions, not words. Sometimes, it feels as if an Angel has wrapped me in their arms/wings, and I see just how wonderful life is. If we were to take the boundaries off of our love that we give, to remove the conditions, to allow it to flow as it should, we would experience a whole new life. I can only compare it to the joy felt when a baby is born, or when you’re feeling so much love for someone, something, that you feel your heart will burst, and you want to cry. That’s not even close. Imagine a moment when your being was filled with love, so much so that you almost couldn’t handle it. Imagine feeling that way all the time. You can. :)